The Lost Years

2021 the year I grieved for my father (in-law) who was more than just a father to me.

2021 the year my professional life hit some speed bumps.

2021 the year I promised myself I wouldn’t work for anyone but myself. I had to find my calling. Around the same time, I wrote my exams as part of my PhD.

2022 I finally quit being an employee and a pseudo-consultant to a company I built from where my predecessor had left off.

2022 the year Vikramshila Research Pvt Ltd was incorporated

2023 spent building the platforms

2024 June version 1.0 of Aakashganga Open is launched for beta testing. Almost 2000 scholars sign up and help refine the portal; a task that continues even today

2024 when I finally earned my PhD and got the title of Doctor

2024 the year Vikramshila focused on research beyond PhD scholars and Academics

The truth is I really don’t know why all this should matter to you as the reader. But in many ways, these are milestones marking important lessons I learnt in the years I kept away from social media.

My silence was to introspect. I wasn’t totally away but my Blog languished. I didn’t feel like writing. I felt I was drowning in a sea of uncertainty. I developed claustrophobia. It reached a point where I couldn’t do yoga that I so loved.

I became addicted to sugar. I had to have a sweet after every meal and I had to have it every day. Remaining focused on the project at hand was difficult but I never wavered. I tried hard to get back to reading and learning. I took up small courses to keep my mind occupied. Entrepreneurship is a process of self-discovery, of confronting your greatest fears and most of all learning to believe in yourself all over again.

2025 began with a spate of personal commitments including that of bathing at the Kumbh Mela. I remained tentative and then the cleansing waters of the Ganges helped me focus on who I really am.

I am not this bundle of frayed nerves, claustrophobic and nervous that I had become. The public persona remained as it always was, strong, confident and calm. This article is about giving hope to those who encounter failure and believe the other person is “solid as a rock”. We all have out demons to fight and we don’t need to fight them alone. I was blessed to have a friend I could confide in and who helped me beat the blues. I got back my yoga and I got rid of my claustrophobia. There remain newer lands to conquer and so much more to learn.

This post is to purge myself of all that held me back. It’s time to write again, to manifest the life that I know is I am entitled to. In the process perhaps you the reader could find a tiny grain of hope.

Drop by my social media accounts to learn more, the blog is only one way of learning to be myself.